Friday, February 20, 2009

Painting Pictures of Egypt

Painting Pictures of Egypt

I don’t want to leave here
I don’t want to stay
It feels like pinching to me either way
The places I long for the most
Are the places where I’ve been
They are calling after me like a long lost friend

It’s not about losing faith
It’s not about trust
It’s all about comfortable
When you move so much
The place I was wasn’t perfect
But I had found a way to live
It wasn’t milk or honey
But then neither is this

I’ve been painting pictures of Egypt
Leaving out what it lacked
The future seems so hard
And I want to go back
But the places that used to fit me
Cannot hold the things I"ve learned
And those roads closed off to me
While my back was turned

The past is so tangible
I know it by heart
Familiar things are never easy to discard
I was dying for some freedom
But now I hesitate to go
Caught between the promise
And the things I know

If it comes too quick
I may not recognize it
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?
If it comes too quick
I may not appreciate it
Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?

This song is so me. It is all about comfort; what is known instead of the unknown. I remember when we were looking for a new church, I was scared. Many times I thought 'lets just go back', at least I know what is there. How quickly I are willing to give up on the 'milk and honey' for what I know.

When finances are tight, I fear the future and would rather go backward. Why is it so hard to trust God for provision and face the future with faith?

Lord help me to remember that You have me safely in Your hands and I can walk boldly forward! NO going back to Egypt!

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