Life is always changing though sometimes we feel stagnant. Truly things change more quickly than we realize or sometimes like to admit. As spring is approaching, we see changes in our lives.
I have felt that I have been in this place forever; one of questioning, frustration and often anger. A time of learning how to be in today, not the past or future. A time of learning to let go and let God handle my problems; really handle them, not just paying lip service to that idea. A time of questioning what is really worthwhile and important.
So here we are at another change; William is driving a truck again and will be on the road often. I will run our cabin care business and oversee the jobs. I will be quitting my job at Roses so I can be home for Hayden and available for William when he needs me. Also, I may ride with him every once and awhile to keep him company!
Have a learned everything I/we needed to? NO. I am only beginning to understand what all this has meant; I don't believe that we have passed through this time completely. We still have much to learn and understand. These changes require faith on our part as it is easy to become comfortable in that stagnation (where God wanted us), even it is really uncomfortable. Does that make sense? You know where you are even if it isn't where you want to be and it makes more sense humanly to just stay there. So, change becomes difficult.
So, here we go into the unknown. New job, new responsibilities, but same good God.
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance...