Tuesday, November 23, 2010


I like trees because they seem more resigned to the way they have to live than other things do.

After my 'brush with mortality' last month I have begun to notice little things that are different. They have come to me in small, quite ways, which I believe is just my Savior gently showing me new insights into my reliance on Him.

As I had wrote in an earlier blog post, I did not have regrets to go over, things I wished I had done or anything left really unsaid. The entire time was one of peace, a divine peace. I didn't have to re-prioritize my life once I was discharged from the hospital. Haven't even made a bucket list.

One thing that came just over the weekend was a softening of my heart toward the organized church. Those of you that know me, know I have been in church all of my life and have served as a lay leader most of my adult life. Ministering has always been apart of who I am until a year ago. After some very difficult incidents and situations, we found ourselves unchurched.

During the year prior to this, I had struggled with the organized church and its committees, controlling members and a lack of God's word being preached clearly and definitively.

I say all this to tell you that God has worked afresh in my heart. He has softened it again and I feel renewed. I don't know what He would have me do, but I am ready. I know this is an answer to prayer for my sweet husband.

As I wrote in the children's journals the other day the verse about how our days are already numbered and ordained came to me.(All the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them ever came to pass Ps. 139:16.) It gave me pause to consider what I had gone through in October. I believe that God is sovereign, nothing in my life is by accident. What I experienced was just a physical thing, some may call it a 'brush with death'; I see it as an opportunity to be a witness before men. It wasn't my appointed time to die. It was just a thing; we are human and our flesh fails us.

I know that I will continue to get sweet tidbits from God here and there. I welcome the opportunity to share my story when led to show how incredible the God I serve truly is. We, as a family, still rejoice at how God's hand was on every part of that short journey from October 8 - 16; not just in the outcome, but in the people we met, the dr. I had, the caring Hannah experienced from strangers, the prayers that went up, the joy we experienced in the mist of a potential bad outcome.

So let us seize and hold fast and retain without wavering the hope we cherish and confess and our acknowledgment of it, for He Who promised is reliable (sure) and faithful to His word.
Hebrews 10:23


Anonymous said...

Ms. Lisa ,

This may come across as weird but when you blog I can relate everytime at that particular moment. I am struggling real bad as to where I fit in a "church" and like you I find most "churches" diluted. The pastor that my karents moved to tx with pretty much left me pretty angry at "church" and I strayed out of bitterness and just recently started my journey back home to the Heart of Christ. I want to know Him for my life and not for anyone else so I can pass down the Real Jesus and Truth to my kids and not
give them " church". I was given that misfortune and thought the church was a joke. My parents pastor and wife Redefined God for me and I found myself where I am now with a heart for people to know the Real Jesus and not some joke we have made Him. Thank you for your blogs and for being exactly what God has told you to be. It has helped this newly reformed thinker for sure. I know you do
not know me well but I have always looked up to you and
And your life is such an inspiration to me. I hope one day We can hang out with you and your family. Paul and I are headed down the a similar path life style wise and spiritually speaking and it would be nice to see how you do it :)



Creative Accents and Accessories said...

What did you mean you wrote in the children's journals???? Do you have a journal for them??? I am trying to start something for J and E that will be something they can see if ever I should leave before I can tell them all the things I would want them to know...

Lisa said...


Thank you for your kind words. I never thought I would walk where I have walked, but I know it has all been for a reason. Hold tight to the real Jesus and continue to fight for the truth.